It's times like tat that makes me feel like im an only child. My parents aslp, siss not home yet/out, and im e only person in the house. Kind of like this ambience, haha.

Anw, TGIF! plus happy children's day though i got no presents. It's a friday but it sure dun feels like one. Had been slogging so hard, everyday is such a torment. Went for dental today which means i get to change band colour. haha. I guess tat's e only joy cos following that is the acute tightness in ur teeth, u cant chew cos e friction hurts like MAD, for days. Im like in agony now but still quite determined to eat the bag of chips in front of me. But my next appt is like after 'A' which seems so long away yet so near. *sigh*

Okay, fine. I give up trying to eat the chips. *pain!* Prelims feels like eons years away but i realised it ended only last friday.

Thinking abt sch sucks. Shall give myself a little treat- having bff day-out tmr with jaz n cherie. Excited x 100 000 000... =D

Anyway,went to bowl with x after prelims on sat. I guess that's the best way to knock out all the not-so-plesant emotions in you. Caught wall street as well. It's watchable, okay, but slightly draggy with alot of econs terms. The gal quite pretty to watch too.

Went to chill out with bf on sunday. Pictures below. Had a pic-a-nic and i prepared the food all by myself. =) okay la. bf helped with the potato salad. Im damn proud of myself, even my mummy said that my salad is yummy. =D Didnt do much the entire day, just laid by the beach which is probably the best thing to do after exams. Sun tanning plan failed though cos it was really cloudy. Didnt even get a tint darker. Poor bf had to study for his test though so i just self entertain. But i wonder what's wrong with the sea, got alot of floating saeweed/sea grass thingy. Plus the soil was like sticky and goey. Quite disgusted. Yucks. Good day spent minus all the small unhappy episodes. Just self-filter off all the unhappy events, den everyday will be a happy day. =)


in case u cant see, it says sentosa. lol


yummy food =)




bf's expression damn comical. lol

sexy legs. haha

Alright, i nid to get SLEEP. Feel so tired everyday i dunno why. Coffee isnt exactly working anymore. HOW?!?! Bf's probably busy absorbing in the loud music, breathing in polluted air, walking thrgh dim lights, ppl(gal)-watching now. Tsk, i'll probably only get to hear from him only nxt morning. Oh well, but i guess he deserve his share of fun and freedom. Shall not disturb then.

Good night world~

oh well,

it's a love-hate affair.

=)

too distracted last night, i left my keys hanging at the door. And daddy was super mad. =(

i wish u wld just lie, n tell me u've tried to keep to ur promise, maybe things will be a tad easier to get by.

sometimes things get a little hard to bear, u just want to let go.

perhaps 2 years is a tad too long, long enough for someone to forget the importance of ur presence.

YAY! Today is a sch-less day. Feels so good to have so much sleep. Had like at least 1o hours of sleep. =D It's so hard to go back to mugging mode when there's only paper 1 left plus had such a BLASTING chillout on fri @kbox. The combi's like damn random but not bad la. Can try again. But poor gk got history paper. Nxt time bring her along. haha.

Slack slack day today. Did only a few papers worth of prac. Opps! Shall do a few more later if not damn guilty. =X So much things to look forward to after exams. Esp this sat n nxt sat. =D Include tmr also, though exams' not done yet. Happy days =))

But i got a big problem. I have a huge pimple on my nose out of e blue. =( Hope it goes down before sat. Btw, im gg to eat some mooncake now, or else it wldnt feel like a mid-autumn at all. No adorable kids carrying lanterns anywhere. Where's e spirit man. Shall make bf carry lantern with me on fri. hahaha

Cant wait for tmr to end!

ARGH!

Back to studying.

Bye~

Happy Bday to my big sis! She's a pain at times but i love her all the same. =)

Btw, i haven touch gsc AT ALL. Slightly guilty now. =X

Damn it!

It's so hard to be upset at u.

rants

i hate the way u say u dun have a choice when it was you who chose to jump into this hole and put urself into e situation u're in. i hate the way u say u dun have a choice when you cld have done something to do get out of the hole yet u chose not to.

Like seriously, wtf.

Do as u like, im gonna throw in the sponge and wash my hands off you.

TGIF

TGIF! IT's friday but srsly it feels like any other day. =(

Hit the gym this morning with ced after being a couch potato for the past few months. Can only say im getting quite unhealthy. haha! No pictures. Cos too unglam alr. Rained super heavily on the way back. N the best thing is we both didnt bring brolly and e journey home from the bus stop to my hse is UNSHELTERED. Wanted to dash across the road but the rain is too heavy. So waited for my big sis to deliver brollyS.

Other than that, it's a boring friday. BORING! im gg to hit the books alr.

half-time!

Wow! I just realised i haven been here for almost a month but still got 2 stalkers spamming my wall. LOL. Took a tad longer than usual to get in here cos i kind of forgot my passwd alr. ha.

YAY! Halfway through the prelims alr. Feel less tensed compared to the past few days of hell. Can have a good sleep tonight. =) Cant believe sep hol is over alr when i dun even feel that i had a holiday. Bf got block leave this week but poor me got exams. So it doesnt really feel like he's not in camp at all cos i haven been seeing him nor texting as much. N while he's out with his frens, using a comp or just reading a book, im slogging like a cow. (Why like a cow? i dunno actually, jus feels that it rhymes) What a sad life. *sob sob* But i bet gk will say school life is e best, must enjoy while u can. hahaha.

Anyway didnt do much in the past week either. Was supposed to achieve my only agenda- renew my passport, but still failed. Im like stuck in s'pore now and if there's any emergency need to pao lu i'll be the only person stranded on this island. Oh dear. I shall go renew after prelims. Exam time= fat face, bulging stomach, so shall just go take pic after i go lose some triglycerides (vomit all e bio terms out). Haha.

Pre-celebrated choo's bday in the hol cos his bday falls on exam day. What bad luck. But the sukiyaki was like DAMN good. Ate aLOT ALOT. Didnt do much actually, just EAT. haha

Went for bf's social night which is to mark the end of service term. Was held at the ballroom @marina bay sands. And the food was SUPER DUPER GD! Like really damn nice i swear. And if u think shark's fin looks like those from the pasar malam or wedding dinner, u r so WRONG. The dinner's shark's fin come in concentrated big pieces. Like heavenly, though i dun really fancy it. The scallop was super generous and the prawns damn huge. Not that exciting for me since i knew nobody. But it was really funny seeing how strangers or female dates of the army guys try to strike conversation with one another to make e situation less awkward (still awkward though). It was quite interesting to ppl-watch and guess if they r real couples or not. haha. N got quite some pretty gals. I think im more interested in looking at e gals. haha. Bf n i got vastly diff taste in guys. Those he said is handsome was like hhmm-okay-only to me. But quite glad i met my pri sch fren. Like so qiao! Haven seen her for ages and she happen to be my bf's fren's date. But we sat different tables which makes me quite unentertained the whole night. Food was my bestfren while bf was running ard, talking, taking pics with frens. But there was like alot of activities and games nonstop throughout the dinner. Quite irritating cos u cant really eat in peace. But i guess cos it's a high class dinner so u're not supposed to be so gluton-y. ha! Overall, the only thing i rmbed abt the dinner was GOOD FOOD.

me n joane =)

See, a long post to make up for the past month. Haha. The sky's quite gloomy, i think it might rain later. But i hope not, so that yz can show off her very yang yan clevage at the pool later. And getting some uv radiation (cos there's no sun now) will make her tanner and look less like cheena kid. LOL!

oh ya, i helped bf to win 1 million dollars on fb bejeweled! But since he doesnt play, it's all MINE! hahaha. I tink e bio paper just sucked up all the sanity in me

mummy's sick.

my desktop has officially been pronounced dead.

AHH! What a week. Feel like eating home-cooked meals but mummy's sick. =(

Photoshoot today was quite fun despite the heat. But worth the sweat i guess. Cos im sure the photos will turn out gd. *fingers crossed*

Vividly rmb how towards the end of term 3, ced constantly complaining, on our way to sch, that he cant wait for study leave to come.

I can totally comprehend now.

Last workingstudying day of the week tmr. WOHOO! But too bad it ends like real late at 505pm. =(

School's a bore. Nth exceptionally worth mentioning. Wanted to really study for bio essay time trial tmr, but i give up. Might just skip it. Oh well, shall see.

I realised that i share quite a peculiar rship with buses man. Seriously, ask yz abt it. Just happened ytd. lol.

Anw, jessie damn nice, lend me her spare phone which is better than my se phone which i've just sent for repair 5 days ago. But still... i miss my lao pok phone. Got problem waking up without it. Would have been late for e past 2 days if not for my dad who sent me to school. Good thing, nice gk lent me her 512mb memory card which is better than nth cos at least i can save 3 songs-msg alert,ringtone,alarm tone, and take some pics. lol. But i dunno what's wrong with her, slp so early. shld have just called ma. Still so act cute tell me "by the time u read this msg, i'll be aslp". LOL!

Okay la. today is not a very productive day despite gg home quite early. Since so, just end this day earlier by gg to bed early. Hopefully some bio crash course on the bus tmr morning will put some stuff into my puneey brain.

Oh ya, yog photos tmr k. damn lazy. Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah, hey! hahaha

Nights world!

nights silly boy

long wkend tat ends in a blink of an eye

Had a long wkend but it's ending alr. OH NO! I wonder why time passes like lightning during wkends but crawls like snail during wkdays. =(

Not a perfect wkend but i guess it all went fine at the end of it. Quick summary for the wkend:

1. Bowling @orchid bowling marina squ. Think i damn pro, got strike a few time. =)

2. Caught salt, which was okay only, but she damn pretty to look at

3. supper with the mjco gang @our fave hangout, n den camwhore with new cam n new effects

4. Supposed to go for some ndp celebration @marina bay but due to some unforeseen circumstances, ended up at vivo to walk walk n do my gsc essay. So poor thing right. While my parents and 2nd sis went to watch the actual ndp. oh well. haha. Anyway, i think day after national day shld be a public hol not sch hol. Like that all e saf guys cannot watch ndp or fireworks with gf. =(

Time dun stop ticking and life goes on regardless of wat happens. But dun forgot to stop by and take time to smell the flowers, and to cherish all that u have. Appreciate what others have done for u, and appreciate that u're still alive to be able to make an impact on others.

dear fren, may u find peace n love in e memories u share. stay strong! :)

miss my boy alr....

monday blues

Visited SAFTI MI today cos it was family day. It's so much more convenient travelling with a car than taking a train to joo koon. The car ride itself was alr about an hr, imagine how much longer it wld have taken if by train. Reached there at 1330. The compound is HUGE! and the weather was super hot. His mum damn cute, purposely didnt tell him tat i'll be gg and i didnt tell him either. Cld see that he got a HUGE shock when he saw me, but i hope it's a pleasant surprise. haha! Had a 'guided' tour by him ard the place. Went to the famous landmark-safti tower. It's about 15 storeys, i roughly gauged. Q-ed for super long,maybe half an hr in the hot sun. But i guess it's all quite worth it. The view was magnificent. You can see NTU,sentosa, jurong industrial area, changi airport, mt faber etc... Super windy up there too. Got wild animals in the compound also. ha! Saw chamelon and squirrel. The world is quite small i guess, saw alot of my pri sch frens who happen to be is his wing too. Took quite some pics but not with me. So upload some other times ba. Had a gd day today. Haven seen my boy for so so so long, kind of miss rubbing his botak head, though not so botak anymore. I guess chiong-ing hw till 230am on sat and buring the whole of my sunday was quite worth it ba.

So long~ im dead beat. Night world.

wanted to post a long emo post, but apparently im too slpy alr. Emo plan failed. haha. Another day perhaps

Let's be optimistic. 'A' plegde with yz, and gk is barred from joining. lol.

So time to go to bed. Gd night gk! Thanks for ur wax. haha.

MONDAY BLUES

Miss getting home real early during exam periods. Now need to go through all the long days. =(
Failed chem mcq as expected cos i felt like i was placing bets for toto while doing it. Passed gp p1 unexpectedly. I dunno what's wrong with me or was's wrong with ms s. But apparently all the qns i attempted end up being the killer qns, or topics that she wants us to avoid doing, if not totally boycott it. Like totally RAH and makes me clueless when choosing qns. There's bio tmr and i tell you it's e worst lesson ever, even worst than maths tut, seriously. Just hate her lesson. Perhaps it's cos my impression of her is not exactly very plesant. haha

Teeth hurts like crazy today, still. But definitely getting better as the days go by. Wonder if it's the pain going away, or it's just me getting used to the constant strains and pains. But i do know i have damn alot of ulcers here there everywhere. Plus ctl today hit the waterbottle against my teeth purposely while i was drinking, which hurts like @#$%^ so i accidentally scolded him @#$%. Mealtimes are super torturous now. Imagine eating one small kueh for like 30min for recess, a cranberry muffin for like 50 min, and eating dinner with rice+soup+minced veg and egg for 2h. Seriously. When has the best thing to do on earth beome so unbearable.

Managed to be a very good gooseberry today, sitting in between gk and yz for lessons today, cos too lazy to move. Haha. Caused the couple to not have enough interaction today. But must understand my effort ok. Absence makes e heart fonder. LOL. everyday sit beside each other later quarrel eh.

Btw, pe today sucks! Took height and weight at the wrong time really. I lost almost 4 kg in like 4 days! Like so unbelievable. My sis says i look like an African kid now. ha! But i cant help it since my teeth are not doing their job while my thraot is trying her best to tolerate the consistent need for peristalsis. The worst thing is that my bmi is 14.3 and i freaking need to attend some stupid wellness prog that obviously wont help. But who cares, im gonna pretend that i dunno abt it. SHhhh...

Talked to my boy for less than 7 mins just now. Guess it takes time to settle down at a foreign environment. But how much can you say in 7min? Nth much. Ha! Time's so compressed, it feels pressurising to talk cos u feel like it cld be lights out in the nxt min alr. Oh well.. He'll be fine la, for sure. But 20 days seems quite long. haha. =X

I need to adjust my slping time alr. And finish up my gsc essay if not essayS.

Oh ya, tgif supper on fri! Better not dao bi, hopefully.

Till the nxt time, bye~

TGIF!

Had a great friday minus all the pains and torture of having meals. Woke up super early and was late for dental, as usual, but not that late la. It's nice having someone to accompany you there. Even though you'll probably be at ur unglam-est ever, you feel safe and comforted. =) Went chinatown to eat yummy porridge and took a cultural walk around. I think i've never been to chinatown ever. Really, at least for as far as i can rmb. Ha. Went to get a little island getaway after that at Sentosa. The weather was really HOT which is supposed to be good. But well... hahah. Slack by the beach and kind of fell aslp. Really damn shiok. Feel so relaxed..... Fly the lousy kite from daiso and just stroll ard. Had yummy popeyes mashed potatoes for dinner and then went to play kick scooter cos apparently it nv existed in my childhood. haha. Today's a fruitful friday with my boy. =D

my poor boy is posted to ocs which means 9 months of hell for him, and for me too. =( But i know it's a new challenge tat he'll overcome, that we're brave through. =))

But the greatest challenge now is the metal stuff in my mouth. They hurt like MAD. im serious! Kind of dying alr. Cant possible rely on painkillers forever right. And i really want to eat but i cant. SOB SOB. Hope it'll feel better after a few weeks, hopefully one.

Legs and mind's really tired now. Shall slp soon. Till then, tata~

JAILBREAK!

like seriously.

Definitely cant say im gg to ace MYE, probably going flunk every single subject. But still feel like ultra HAPPY today! No more papers. WOHOO! and 4 days of pure happiness without thinking of doing work. that shldnt be the way but who cares, i had enough. =X

Caught esclipse just now. Well, it was okay... Not a must-watch but i guess it's ok to watch. You get it? Haha. Watching world cup now on chn 5. It's few billion times better than watching laggy n lousy quality live streaming online. GO GERMANY! =D Though half time alr still 0-0. Ha!

Poor gek khim still got history paper tmr. Somemore they damn mean, scheduled at afternoon. So evil right. I help you scold them while im out tmr. heehee. =X Anw GO GK! Must ace history man! =DD

where's e light at e end of e tunnel?

I can conclude than gk is an ULTIMATE stalker. haha! This place is dead for billion of years yet she still visits.

Anyway exams SUCKS BIG TIME! and i cant wait for tmr to end. Looking forward to my 4 days' worth of escapade and freedom before the ultimate lows in life which follows thereafter. *pout*

Meanwhile i need to catch up on beauty slp cos i only slpt 2 hrs before heading to sch and my brain cells are degenerating like rapidly. So gd night ppl. Shall wake up later to study chem.

Till then. Bye~

Anyway hope my gf's having fun in poland. =D

what u left unspoken is louder than wat you've said.

I guess there's such a fine line between being understanding and getting urself upset.

You're in the right.

It's just me and my own emotional imbalance and i need to sort them out on my own. Meanwhile, stay away from me.

honeymoon's over. face e real world.

tmr's monday alr. y does wkends always ends so fast. DREADS

TGIF!!!

TGIF!!!

It's the day where you can take a little teeny weeny break from work and feel LESS guilty.

Officially stepped down from CO and happiness is like indescribable, knowing you have much more time to do other stuff, especially after being in CO for like 7 years. CO concert wasnt great, but still not too bad, and am super glad it's over.

Thanks fel, mav and choo for the nice flowers, which is still in a vase in my living room now. Dont worry they are in good hands and definitely not in the trash bin.

my boy is currently in an island far far away, safeguarding the city im in. Hope he's having enough rest and surviving well. 4 more days till he's back.

Sch's still the same usual routine. DREADS.

Looking forward to gals' day out tmr. =D

ALG outing today before school n surprising there's full attendance. YAY! after so long. haha.

School sucks big time as usual but nice friends make bad times feel much bearable.

F baked brownie for us which was not too bad (cannot say nice or else later she'll feel too happy) and im having sore throat now. ha.

Just a short update. back to work =(

i had a bad night,

thanks to u.

i get it,

it's just me being naive.

GP paper was damn HARD.

but oh well,

IT'S OVER! =)

Life's full of deception.

Sometimes there's simply nothing we can do to change it,

but to live with it.

happy cny!

HAPPY CNY! im not lag ok. it's still cny now. =)

But gotta go to school in 20min time. DREADS... Wednesday blues...

CNY was quite normal this yr, nothing exceptionally interesting but the later part of ytd saved the cny. Although i made a big loss, quoted by my sis, for not gg to my aunt's hse ytd, i think it's still worth-it. Hope im not wrong. haha

Anyway shall sum things up a little. No pics cos this dumb dumb mac hangs everytime i tries to upload pic.

Day1:

1. Go to aunt's hse, sat there n ate n ate n ate cos there was nothing else to do
2. came back home cos my mum's side's relatives were here, played blackjack for very very long
3. went to ced's hse, played mj cum blackjack with ced, jiahao and joel. The combi is quite weird i know. hahaha. Ton till 3+am n decided to go home, ps jh who had no choice but to stay overnight at ced's place

Day2:

1. Went to ah ma's hse, played more blackjack
2. Went to my uncles's new bungalow which was damn huge. like HUGE. with a open rooftop-can do startgazing or emo one corner.
3. Then it was back to ah ma's hse again and more blackjack. ha! and cos of this cldnt make it to ced' place.

Day3:

1. Mr wong's new place which was really pretty. Played lots of wii, and basically just chill out and rot
2. Went to brian's place, though initially wasnt intending to, but oh wells...
3. After that went to watch v-day which was quite nice =D

Oh ya, went to bimbo's bday chalet just before cny. Thanks bimbo for inviting! cos it's been so long since i last went to chalet. Nv regretted going though most of them were her ahs friends. But being very sociable... haha! And ctl slept in e same room as me n my friend. Bet he felt damn awkward. haha. But he slept like a pig, kept snoring like real loudly. So i guess he had a good slp. hahaha

Alright, need to head for school soon. The car ride would be abt 5 min. Makes a real great time diff if im taking bus instead. But if only my dad have told me ytd that he's gg to send me to school, i could have slept like 30 min more.. RAH. and there's co today. =(

Off to school. BYE~

Oh man. Am starting to feel the mondays blues effect already. Totally hate mondays cos there's the fitness and conditioning for road race n napfa. Will stink like very very stink after that.

It's only the second week of school and i tell you school sucks. Big time. Really wish i could just fast forward to the end of year skipping all the tiring and stressful periods in between. This is my worst weekend by far. Seriously.

Organic chem was fine at first, learning only about three of the more basic ones. But now with many more compounds coming in, im like super confused. Like i cant even handle those topics in front when i could. RAH! and chem test is on tues. Kill me please...

And i run of of mjc gao zhi. How to do jian bao?....

=(

Anyway,

HAPPY BDAY GF!!! =))

Taking the initiative to start talking doesnt mean that im in e wrong, or u're right. It only means that i value u more than my pride. Bcos every min spent unhappy with each other only means losing 60 seconds of precious time that could be spent doing other more productive stuff.

new yr, new beginnings

Time flies. Cliche but always true. It's already 6 days into the new yr. How i wish the holiday never ends bcos i can foresee how hard and tiring the upcoming months will be. I love to rot at home and sleep till i wakes up naturally in the morning. Simple bliss in life that you'll never get once school starts. Finally came to terms that school's really starting and that i need to hit those books and i realised i need to do a lot of stationery shopping. Need to get pens, my fave yellow highligher and the correction fluid that is 3/4 full but dried up alr. =(

It's a new year, another new beginning.

2009 has been an amazing and eventful year.

It started out, filled with fear, dread and worry. The fact that i would be stereotyped by others, wondering if i could ever fit into a new and foreign environment. But im so glad that i've met a group of wonderful people in the class. People whom i can click, people whom i really enjoyed spending time with. BBQs, chalets, outings, movie sessions... All the wonderful time spent together... Not forgetting all the old friends that stood by me through it all.

To mav,fel,ctl,scott, sz,wc,gk,lynn,

Just want to say that j1 life would never be this awesome without you. Thanks for always being there to share your support, gossips and everything else. =)

To prss-mjc old friends,

Thanks for always being there and not ps-ing me. Just having your presence makes me feel so much better every time. Going to school this year will never be the same without ced and w.

Miss those mornings when we had full attendance in the canteen. Although we're all going our separate ways, let's stay in touch and meet up every so often k. =)

To sec sch bffs,

Although it's been a long time since we met up due to all the busy schedules and stuff, im sure we still think of one another at times. Hope 2010 would be a smooth sailing yr for everyone. =)

To cherie & jaz,

Everybody's been so busy in 09 that we didnt meet up in 09 at all and i only get to talk to cherie when i bump into her in sch. Hope we can meet up more often this yr. Cant wait for our upcoming date =)

To citibank friends,

It's been such an enjoyable working experience, not because of the workload but bcos everyday is spent knowing each one of you a little better. It's interesting to know people from the other side of spore and people whom are not of my age, to learn about others' viewpoints on a similar issue. Im really glad i know u guys. Let's keep in touch =)

To sw,

All the big fights, small fights, cold wars, disagreements, unhappiness that we encountered like all normal people do, im so glad we've managed to overcome them and walked this far. Thanks for being there. You make every single awful thing bearable =))

Hope 2010 would be a better yr than before! =D

Pardon the super wordy post cos this lappy just refuse to get the pics uploaded.

counting down till e days u'll be back...

Haven logged in for almost a gazillion yrs, i nearly forgotten my passwrd. Anways loads and LOADS of things happened, both heart-warming and heart-wrenching. But let's not recall abt those bad things. But im too lazy to get my thumbdrive from the room to upload the pics. Shall do it e nxt time round when i have time to really sit down n reflect on all those events.

Just a sweep through the events

1) mavis tan surprise visit

2) visit to scott's hse

3) standard chartered marathon

4) exploring at new oc which is totally cool cos it is 12 storeys tall n has a sky garden

5) the great escape! on sw's bday

6) singing+ pool with sw's classmates

7) picnic @ecp

8) prssco leadership camp! jus ytd. Reached home and slpt at 530 and woke up jus this morning at 10am. hahaha.

9) Met fel today to the st james flea. Totally worth it cos shopping always felt gd.=)) (minus all e heartaches of seeing e no getting smaller in ur bank acc)

10) everyday happening with work friends. Lisan! Faster come back and buy me lots n lots of presents from bangkok! haha

=))

Life's pretty exciting but time really flies. Totally hate it cos i haven done anything i should do as a student, if u can wat i meant. If u dont, put it simply, i haven really touched the books. Or rather notes. and loads of them. AHH~

On a lighter note, daddy, HAPPY BDAY and i love you! *muacks*

And 10 mins in advance, HAPPY BDAY CHERIE CHIANG! YOU'RE 18!!! (finally)

Till then, bye!~~

Being attached is much MUCH more than just 2 ppl in love.

i should have known.

HELLO!

It's been so so so very long since i last blogged. Been doing nothing constructive these days and im really enjoying. Totally love the feeling of waking up naturally without being disturbed by alarm clock. Somehow time seemed to pass at twice the speed during holidays when you're idling away compared to when u're attending a lecture. Oh well...

Dec's gonna be a busy month. So much to anticipate. =) Even work is fun! these days with all the good friends i got to know. Suddenly i feel like working there longer than i've planned. Shall see how it goes...

Took quite some pics these days but my memory card reader is MIA. =( Will try to find it soon.

Till then, bye!

Life's been good. Work's been gd.

Except,

1. im having a bad throat

2. The mac burger i ate ytd had a strand of hair in it. *pukes*

3. im having a major wadrobe malfunction

4. carefree days r gg to be over soon. My sis been bombarding me with so many maths qns lately but i cant seem to rmb how to do some of them alr. time to start doing something soon.

5. i nid to get my shoes.

6. My phone is at e clinc. gg to go pick it up tmr

Anyway to ppl taking A and my classmates preparing for op,

ALL E BEST! =D

looking forward to class chalet =))

i wan the silly boy who listens attentively and sincerely cares back, and not this selfish pig tat dun give a damn.

RAH!

btw mavis tan, im not emo nemo. haha. it's matter-of-fact-ly. =)

This wkend will be very exciting. =))

=(

MY PHONE DIED ON ME AGAIN! ='( ^ infinity.

I dun have ALL my contacts now. =(

Met GF for lunch today. She's still the same, haven changed one bit. haha. But only managed to catch up for a short while cos her break was only an hour. But oh well, there's always more chances this yr. =)

Got another new job tmr. Kind of dreading it though cos i need to wake up real early everyday. And that i dont't have enough formal clothes to last one wk. Seriously. Plus i haven had time to get a pair of decent heels/flats. Imagine office wear paired with canvas flats. Totally retarded. Ha. But oh well. Hope i can make some friends too cos i'll probably be staying there for quite a while and it's really troublesome to have lunch alone when u can hardly find seats after buying ur food. But cldnt help it previously cos only one person can have lunch at any one time.

It's not my first time working, but after all the working days, i will always appreciate myself being a student more than ever. Being a student is so much more carefree, really. Im so glad im still going to be a student for a few couple more years. =)) You'll probably understand once you start working. Haha.

Another thing to look forward to. Muay thai on sat with mav and fel. Totally exciting.

disappointment

Im gg to meet my GF for lunch tmr =))

Kind of missing mavis and felicia already. Haven seen them for so So SO SO long. Seem to have lose track of time these days cos i've been rotting at home. Anyway i cant seem to watch vamp diaries on sidereel =( , so i've been watching this random jap drama that turns out superb.

do u know how sucky it feels to rpy in one liners, when all i really want to do, is to share all the encounters and things that happened recently with you.

='(

if this is ur way of getting back at me, to make me upset,

you've succeeded.

congrats.

another rainy day.

what's wrong with us.

what's wrong with me.

I guess it's only human nature that we tend to be less tolerant and less patient to our closed ones. Just think of those times when you replied your parents' qns with such irritation and annoyance. I have to admit tat i do that too sometimes, especially after a bad day i guess. And my way of preventing myself from that? i will lock myself in e room or go to bed. B'cos i realised in a fit of annoyance/anger, we tend to make hurtful remarks.

So does that means when people speak to us with such irritation and annoyance, we should be gald?

How ironic.

rainy day

it sucks big time to be at the mercy of others, to have your own fate determined by others' leniency.

i swear this will be the last time i'll succumb myself to this.

judgement day

It's e season of facing those numbers again. Mere numbers that could determine your life. Those vivid memories from a yr ago came flashing back. Im not fearless about my future fate but at this point of time, what really upsets me, is not my own result, but rather seeing ppl facing the same turmoil and emotions as i once did, reaching a crossroad and not knowing what to do. I cant tell you for sure whether choosing to repeat was a good choice, but i can surely say that repeating is a bumpy journey that i wish upon no one. The social, mental stigma and barrier, having to adapt to the new environment..., i guess nobody can truly understand if u've not been in this situation.

It's not as though i love every single one person in my class, but really, i do hope to see everyone of us next yr.

Oh well... for now, let's just not think abt this and take a break from all the studying. Cheers! =)

home

im home... from school. Stayed in sch for barely two hours and im home alr. All hs's fault. Made me report to sch just for morning assembly and collect the stupid timetable. Grrr. But oh well. waking up early is good. Probably cant get to sleep now. Shall go fish-a-fish.

picnic day =)

Cant believe i just finished my exams today. Just dun quite feel the excitement and happiness of being away from all the studying for a while. Probably bcos judgement day is next wk i suppose. I hope by then i can truly have a reason to feel happy and much more at ease than i am now.

Thought there wont be sch tmr for me but who knows attendance is compulsory when i dun even have lessons. ARGHH. But im too gd gal to want to pon school. Oh well, shall just have to wake up early.

Had a great day-out together with the ALG to celebrate the closure of exams. Went marina barrage for picnic. I think guys will nv know how to enjoy the fun of having potluck. haha. But they're impt to clear up all e food. Food was satisfying today and fulfilling. The scenery was great minus all the constructions and cranes everywhere. Weather was gd today too. Super cloudy and windy. Maybe that explains why there's alot of ppl flying kites there. And then after all the food, we had our nice personal tourguide to lead the way and explore the place. Time spent today was worthwhile though im really tired now and ctl kept complaining that my panda eyes are really scary. Shall have another outing soon. haha. =))

study leave day 01

My sis always says this:

The climb is hard but the view is great.

I know i'll make it thrgh, just hang in there.

RAHH

i so feel like screaming mav's fave word now.

GRRRR. shall make one last effort n put down my pride.

But if things doesnt change. So be it.

COMA-ED

Slept like a baby ytd. Literally.
Imagine yourself slping for 14hrs straight all the way from 5.30pm ytd. haha.
Never thought my body wld be so tired. But at least it makes me feel quite energised now.



Here's some pictures from ytd.

Pics from super long ago bio practical

felicia's glove

mavis's glove.

littlesuperherogal is sick. =(

Supposed to be enjoying my long wkend but now i cant really think logically.

Had a super torturous tuition session on sat but not bcos debbie is really boring but rather i felt so bad i cldnt think straight. Chiong to bed n coma-ed right after tuition n spent half e day in bed , slping. Felt much better after panadol. But all my schwk undone. =((

Supposed to be fine now but i realized im having a 38.2 fever. =(

But im still going to my grandma's hse to celebrate her bday in a while. Heehee

I hope i will have a miraculous recovery so that i can eat all the gd stuff there later =)

bye~

It've been a really dramatic and eventful wkend i must say. 

But i guess it's all worth the trouble and agony. 

Cos it made me understand so much more.

Thanks for everything. 

wish mondays nv come...

Had an eventful saturday tat wasnt exactly productive.

Started e day with e gals @trl, supposedly to study but i ended up only finishing my jian bao. But i guess it beats doing nothing at all. Anyway studying for math to me was nv productive. I cant help but rather do anything else in e world n not maths, even if it's bio or chem. ha.

Caught orphan @gv. It was a fantastic show, definitely a must-watch. The plot, acting and effects were amazing. My heart had nv beat so fast while watching a horror movie ever. Shall tell e gals abt it tmr. haha.

Anyway, had tution today n my tcher said that i look sporty. HAHA!

But for now, back to bio n maths =(

it's e mugging season again. 

Note to self: hang in there!  

chao ta-ed

Woke up really really early today @ like 10 plus am. Met s n we went somewhere u wld probably least expect. The last time i've been there was when i was in sec 1. Imagine how much the place has changed since 4 years ago. Went sun tanning n play water. PLAY only, i guess it takes time to overcome my phobia. haha. Had a really great day plus i met dawn, whose reaction when she saw us was totally hilarious, fel n sheena e 2 stupid women and qianqian. Tamp is such a small place. =))

Alot has happened on friday n it's probably the most exciting national day celebration i've ever had. I shall not elaborate what happened but i can say that e class will surely n definitely not be e same anymore after the hol after what she's done. It's a totally wrong move that she miscalculated. But what's done cannot be undone and after wat happened, some of us see light n truth in ppl while others remain blindsided. But that's not an issue, cos time will tell. We'll see.

my mummy is like psycho-ing me to go hiking with her tmr morning. But i'll need to wake up at 5am. And she's using dim sum for breakfast after the hike as a bait. haha! Hmm. Let me consider...

i like wednesdays, without co pracs. 

Which means i like today cos i went for funfestique vball game n missed prac.

It was fun since e last time i actually touched vball was in primary sch.

And it was still fun though we won 1 match n lost 3.

Got to know 3 new ppl who were in our team. =)

n though im quite lousy, im still better than c teckli. That's for sure. =P

Played bball after vball while waiting for s to finish lecture.

Carried out mission HOHO after that with s. =)

shall disclose mission HOHO tmr after it's completed.

btw i showed my mummy my blue blacks after vb today n she thght i self-tortured myself. ha!

pe tmr again. =( 

damn dread. But tues pe was damn fun. 

Cos i only helped to take other's 2.4 run timing n didnt move much.

e only bad thing was that it was a real sunny day.

so many things happened  it taught me that we shld NV shelf our unhappiness n emotions. make things clear or u might jus miss that chance n regret it for life. n to tat stupid woman, if u dun think abt it now, u might lose that chance to think. 1 wk is nothing compared to e time u've spent together. i hope u'll be a happy gal. smile smile. =)) 

S302 REACH! @ CHINESE GARDEN

Went chinese garden for cip last sunday with my class ppl. Totally dramatic cos alot of things happened. But simply too tired to write in details alr. So here's some pics. Till then~

BAG-man

nice scenary. totally thght i was in china for a moment. ha.

really tired of being upset abt e same issues. maybe e underlying prob is us.

one more day to FRIDAY

I've survived TWO double GP and double bio periods this week. (Y)
So proud of myself, especially since i didnt doze off.
Plus i ran a total of 13 rounds= 400mX13= Z (u can count urself) this wk
after not doing any exercise the the past month.
I bet i lost 2kg alr. haha.
Actually the fun & cool club is quite exciting. Bcos after every pe lsns, there's a sense of fulfilment plus there's company.
But still, i still want to whine abt pe.



Anyway i met a madman on the bus with shunzi some time last wk i think.
Suay-ness! He's a damn weirdo man.
Was chatting with shunzi on the bus when this guy changed his seats to those in front of us. So things goes like that:
Madman(M): *turns ard* What's e time now?
Shunzi: 5.30pm
M: ooh. How many more minutes to 6?
Shunzi & me: *Stares at each other**stunned face*
M: 30min?
S&me: *thinking-wow he can count!*
S:Ya
M: Today wat day?
S: Friday
M: Tmr wat day??
S& me: *cant stop laughing*
S: Saturday?!
M: Alot or very little?
S? *thinking-wat in e wrld is he refering to*
me: Just randomly choose
S:very little?
M: No, alot.
S: okok.
and a lot more qns....
S & me: Let's get out immediately at e next stop.
And SO, we got off and changed bus. Waited for my bus at tpjc n happily board e bus to go home.
Who knows, i actually heard that familiar qns-bombarding madman again. And to think he actually alighted at e same stop as me. super wth.
But im safe la. otherwise i wldnt be here. Hopefully we will all not see him ever again.



im quite depressed over it but i guess it's time to pick myself up n move on. I still have 10 more wks to prove myself.



Cant wait for the wkends to come. =))

=(

The worst part about exams is when you get the papers back.

totally demoralizing.

just one more to go.

More than half the cohort is probably doing brainless stuff and catching up on sleep now. But i have 1 last paper tmr. ARGH! Although there are still ppl like felicia who's feeling even more demoralised after the usual mjc standard chem paper despite it being her last paper. haha. Just take things easy now, there's more to come. Having lower expectation on myself for chem, leaving almost 20 marks blank seems pretty satisfactory cos it's a really really horrible paper. it'll probably take a miracle for me to pass. ha.



Went for eating session after paper with felicia and sheena to white sands to destress and totally forget abt all the exams. Fries was yum as usual but got a big present from superdog in my drink. Was alr halfway thrgh the drink when i felt like eating e ice. Opened the lid n there was a big floating carcass of a black once flying object. Damn disgusted and S went to complain. Im so gonna boycott white sands sdog.



So now im going to do random stuff cos i have no idea what n how to study for gsc. Im equally clueless cos im gg to take a full gsc paper that lasts for 2h40min writing in chinese characters non stop for a very first time.



currently in a semi-post-holiday mood now. Cant wait for this sat n especially next sat. hahaha.

hafway there, jus 2 more papers to go.
AHH!...

bye~

picture-ful post

Been a long long time since i've updated. So here's e overview for e past weeks.


YTD

Had our gp paper ytd morning followed by our learning journey and the 'mass' movie. There's nothing much to comment about gp paper so let's jus talk abt e latter. NE journey this time was really exciting comparatively all thanks to our nice ne rep, m tan. Bcos while other classes have to take squeezely crowded buses to get to their NE destination, our class has chartered a bus at super subsidised rate. Totally love e shiokness of the aircon under e hot weather. But we got a little lost after that n after much effort, we finally reach CHILDREN LITTLE MUSEUM. The place was real 'big'. ha.



Went for e movie at 450pm n e movie was quite nice but abit brainless like fel. haha. Bcos she loves blob blob. I think the insectosaurus is cuter. Oh ya, n 2 of us shared a medium sized popcorn. Though it's supposed to be medium sized, it was damn huge. Both of us kept munching from e start till e end of e movie, but we still cldnt finish. ha.



After the movie, me n fel went dating n shopped all e way from orchard to sommerset. Really had a great day! =)

guitar with ermm... 3 strings.

old sch uniform but the one on e left is my pri sch uniform.

so pretty right.

fel, mav, me and heyya

mav, me, vespa, fel n heyya

idotic mav n fel trying to mimic bruce

09S302 =D

us again. =DD

COLLOSEUM

colloseum aka sports day.

Nothing much cos i didnt join anything. And all i could rmb was that e weather was super duper hot.

fel, me, mav, shunzi, weichieh, lynn, gekkhim

me n bimbotic f holding e damn huge bunch of balloons

MY 18th BDAY =)

Jus want to say that i had a real splendid n memorable bday this yr cos i spend it with all my loved and close ones.

First with ced, sy, wendy, sj, tw, sw, qq with a ji dan gao for my bday cake with wax on it.

Then with ALG gang (fel, mav, hy, teckli, scott) with a damn huge hamburger cake n cards n flowers n stuff.

And then with more mj close frens (fel, tl, sheena) n sw for dinner. Pity m cldnt make it but at least that ex-bai kah gal scored one goal at her match.

And then and then it was with my sec sch BFFS (deb, wendy hj) n sw for dinner on sat night. Had a great time catching up though most cldnt make it.

Thanks for everything, to everyone. =D

huge ass hamburger cake

nice flowers from f

hy, m, me, f

ALG

sheena, me, fel

tl, sw, me, s, f, hy