too distracted last night, i left my keys hanging at the door. And daddy was super mad. =(

i wish u wld just lie, n tell me u've tried to keep to ur promise, maybe things will be a tad easier to get by.

sometimes things get a little hard to bear, u just want to let go.

perhaps 2 years is a tad too long, long enough for someone to forget the importance of ur presence.

YAY! Today is a sch-less day. Feels so good to have so much sleep. Had like at least 1o hours of sleep. =D It's so hard to go back to mugging mode when there's only paper 1 left plus had such a BLASTING chillout on fri @kbox. The combi's like damn random but not bad la. Can try again. But poor gk got history paper. Nxt time bring her along. haha.

Slack slack day today. Did only a few papers worth of prac. Opps! Shall do a few more later if not damn guilty. =X So much things to look forward to after exams. Esp this sat n nxt sat. =D Include tmr also, though exams' not done yet. Happy days =))

But i got a big problem. I have a huge pimple on my nose out of e blue. =( Hope it goes down before sat. Btw, im gg to eat some mooncake now, or else it wldnt feel like a mid-autumn at all. No adorable kids carrying lanterns anywhere. Where's e spirit man. Shall make bf carry lantern with me on fri. hahaha

Cant wait for tmr to end!

ARGH!

Back to studying.

Bye~

Happy Bday to my big sis! She's a pain at times but i love her all the same. =)

Btw, i haven touch gsc AT ALL. Slightly guilty now. =X

Damn it!

It's so hard to be upset at u.

rants

i hate the way u say u dun have a choice when it was you who chose to jump into this hole and put urself into e situation u're in. i hate the way u say u dun have a choice when you cld have done something to do get out of the hole yet u chose not to.

Like seriously, wtf.

Do as u like, im gonna throw in the sponge and wash my hands off you.

TGIF

TGIF! IT's friday but srsly it feels like any other day. =(

Hit the gym this morning with ced after being a couch potato for the past few months. Can only say im getting quite unhealthy. haha! No pictures. Cos too unglam alr. Rained super heavily on the way back. N the best thing is we both didnt bring brolly and e journey home from the bus stop to my hse is UNSHELTERED. Wanted to dash across the road but the rain is too heavy. So waited for my big sis to deliver brollyS.

Other than that, it's a boring friday. BORING! im gg to hit the books alr.

half-time!

Wow! I just realised i haven been here for almost a month but still got 2 stalkers spamming my wall. LOL. Took a tad longer than usual to get in here cos i kind of forgot my passwd alr. ha.

YAY! Halfway through the prelims alr. Feel less tensed compared to the past few days of hell. Can have a good sleep tonight. =) Cant believe sep hol is over alr when i dun even feel that i had a holiday. Bf got block leave this week but poor me got exams. So it doesnt really feel like he's not in camp at all cos i haven been seeing him nor texting as much. N while he's out with his frens, using a comp or just reading a book, im slogging like a cow. (Why like a cow? i dunno actually, jus feels that it rhymes) What a sad life. *sob sob* But i bet gk will say school life is e best, must enjoy while u can. hahaha.

Anyway didnt do much in the past week either. Was supposed to achieve my only agenda- renew my passport, but still failed. Im like stuck in s'pore now and if there's any emergency need to pao lu i'll be the only person stranded on this island. Oh dear. I shall go renew after prelims. Exam time= fat face, bulging stomach, so shall just go take pic after i go lose some triglycerides (vomit all e bio terms out). Haha.

Pre-celebrated choo's bday in the hol cos his bday falls on exam day. What bad luck. But the sukiyaki was like DAMN good. Ate aLOT ALOT. Didnt do much actually, just EAT. haha

Went for bf's social night which is to mark the end of service term. Was held at the ballroom @marina bay sands. And the food was SUPER DUPER GD! Like really damn nice i swear. And if u think shark's fin looks like those from the pasar malam or wedding dinner, u r so WRONG. The dinner's shark's fin come in concentrated big pieces. Like heavenly, though i dun really fancy it. The scallop was super generous and the prawns damn huge. Not that exciting for me since i knew nobody. But it was really funny seeing how strangers or female dates of the army guys try to strike conversation with one another to make e situation less awkward (still awkward though). It was quite interesting to ppl-watch and guess if they r real couples or not. haha. N got quite some pretty gals. I think im more interested in looking at e gals. haha. Bf n i got vastly diff taste in guys. Those he said is handsome was like hhmm-okay-only to me. But quite glad i met my pri sch fren. Like so qiao! Haven seen her for ages and she happen to be my bf's fren's date. But we sat different tables which makes me quite unentertained the whole night. Food was my bestfren while bf was running ard, talking, taking pics with frens. But there was like alot of activities and games nonstop throughout the dinner. Quite irritating cos u cant really eat in peace. But i guess cos it's a high class dinner so u're not supposed to be so gluton-y. ha! Overall, the only thing i rmbed abt the dinner was GOOD FOOD.

me n joane =)

See, a long post to make up for the past month. Haha. The sky's quite gloomy, i think it might rain later. But i hope not, so that yz can show off her very yang yan clevage at the pool later. And getting some uv radiation (cos there's no sun now) will make her tanner and look less like cheena kid. LOL!

oh ya, i helped bf to win 1 million dollars on fb bejeweled! But since he doesnt play, it's all MINE! hahaha. I tink e bio paper just sucked up all the sanity in me

mummy's sick.

my desktop has officially been pronounced dead.

AHH! What a week. Feel like eating home-cooked meals but mummy's sick. =(

Photoshoot today was quite fun despite the heat. But worth the sweat i guess. Cos im sure the photos will turn out gd. *fingers crossed*

Vividly rmb how towards the end of term 3, ced constantly complaining, on our way to sch, that he cant wait for study leave to come.

I can totally comprehend now.

Last workingstudying day of the week tmr. WOHOO! But too bad it ends like real late at 505pm. =(

School's a bore. Nth exceptionally worth mentioning. Wanted to really study for bio essay time trial tmr, but i give up. Might just skip it. Oh well, shall see.

I realised that i share quite a peculiar rship with buses man. Seriously, ask yz abt it. Just happened ytd. lol.

Anw, jessie damn nice, lend me her spare phone which is better than my se phone which i've just sent for repair 5 days ago. But still... i miss my lao pok phone. Got problem waking up without it. Would have been late for e past 2 days if not for my dad who sent me to school. Good thing, nice gk lent me her 512mb memory card which is better than nth cos at least i can save 3 songs-msg alert,ringtone,alarm tone, and take some pics. lol. But i dunno what's wrong with her, slp so early. shld have just called ma. Still so act cute tell me "by the time u read this msg, i'll be aslp". LOL!

Okay la. today is not a very productive day despite gg home quite early. Since so, just end this day earlier by gg to bed early. Hopefully some bio crash course on the bus tmr morning will put some stuff into my puneey brain.

Oh ya, yog photos tmr k. damn lazy. Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah, hey! hahaha

Nights world!

nights silly boy

long wkend tat ends in a blink of an eye

Had a long wkend but it's ending alr. OH NO! I wonder why time passes like lightning during wkends but crawls like snail during wkdays. =(

Not a perfect wkend but i guess it all went fine at the end of it. Quick summary for the wkend:

1. Bowling @orchid bowling marina squ. Think i damn pro, got strike a few time. =)

2. Caught salt, which was okay only, but she damn pretty to look at

3. supper with the mjco gang @our fave hangout, n den camwhore with new cam n new effects

4. Supposed to go for some ndp celebration @marina bay but due to some unforeseen circumstances, ended up at vivo to walk walk n do my gsc essay. So poor thing right. While my parents and 2nd sis went to watch the actual ndp. oh well. haha. Anyway, i think day after national day shld be a public hol not sch hol. Like that all e saf guys cannot watch ndp or fireworks with gf. =(

Time dun stop ticking and life goes on regardless of wat happens. But dun forgot to stop by and take time to smell the flowers, and to cherish all that u have. Appreciate what others have done for u, and appreciate that u're still alive to be able to make an impact on others.

dear fren, may u find peace n love in e memories u share. stay strong! :)

miss my boy alr....

monday blues

Visited SAFTI MI today cos it was family day. It's so much more convenient travelling with a car than taking a train to joo koon. The car ride itself was alr about an hr, imagine how much longer it wld have taken if by train. Reached there at 1330. The compound is HUGE! and the weather was super hot. His mum damn cute, purposely didnt tell him tat i'll be gg and i didnt tell him either. Cld see that he got a HUGE shock when he saw me, but i hope it's a pleasant surprise. haha! Had a 'guided' tour by him ard the place. Went to the famous landmark-safti tower. It's about 15 storeys, i roughly gauged. Q-ed for super long,maybe half an hr in the hot sun. But i guess it's all quite worth it. The view was magnificent. You can see NTU,sentosa, jurong industrial area, changi airport, mt faber etc... Super windy up there too. Got wild animals in the compound also. ha! Saw chamelon and squirrel. The world is quite small i guess, saw alot of my pri sch frens who happen to be is his wing too. Took quite some pics but not with me. So upload some other times ba. Had a gd day today. Haven seen my boy for so so so long, kind of miss rubbing his botak head, though not so botak anymore. I guess chiong-ing hw till 230am on sat and buring the whole of my sunday was quite worth it ba.

So long~ im dead beat. Night world.

wanted to post a long emo post, but apparently im too slpy alr. Emo plan failed. haha. Another day perhaps

Let's be optimistic. 'A' plegde with yz, and gk is barred from joining. lol.

So time to go to bed. Gd night gk! Thanks for ur wax. haha.

MONDAY BLUES

Miss getting home real early during exam periods. Now need to go through all the long days. =(
Failed chem mcq as expected cos i felt like i was placing bets for toto while doing it. Passed gp p1 unexpectedly. I dunno what's wrong with me or was's wrong with ms s. But apparently all the qns i attempted end up being the killer qns, or topics that she wants us to avoid doing, if not totally boycott it. Like totally RAH and makes me clueless when choosing qns. There's bio tmr and i tell you it's e worst lesson ever, even worst than maths tut, seriously. Just hate her lesson. Perhaps it's cos my impression of her is not exactly very plesant. haha

Teeth hurts like crazy today, still. But definitely getting better as the days go by. Wonder if it's the pain going away, or it's just me getting used to the constant strains and pains. But i do know i have damn alot of ulcers here there everywhere. Plus ctl today hit the waterbottle against my teeth purposely while i was drinking, which hurts like @#$%^ so i accidentally scolded him @#$%. Mealtimes are super torturous now. Imagine eating one small kueh for like 30min for recess, a cranberry muffin for like 50 min, and eating dinner with rice+soup+minced veg and egg for 2h. Seriously. When has the best thing to do on earth beome so unbearable.

Managed to be a very good gooseberry today, sitting in between gk and yz for lessons today, cos too lazy to move. Haha. Caused the couple to not have enough interaction today. But must understand my effort ok. Absence makes e heart fonder. LOL. everyday sit beside each other later quarrel eh.

Btw, pe today sucks! Took height and weight at the wrong time really. I lost almost 4 kg in like 4 days! Like so unbelievable. My sis says i look like an African kid now. ha! But i cant help it since my teeth are not doing their job while my thraot is trying her best to tolerate the consistent need for peristalsis. The worst thing is that my bmi is 14.3 and i freaking need to attend some stupid wellness prog that obviously wont help. But who cares, im gonna pretend that i dunno abt it. SHhhh...

Talked to my boy for less than 7 mins just now. Guess it takes time to settle down at a foreign environment. But how much can you say in 7min? Nth much. Ha! Time's so compressed, it feels pressurising to talk cos u feel like it cld be lights out in the nxt min alr. Oh well.. He'll be fine la, for sure. But 20 days seems quite long. haha. =X

I need to adjust my slping time alr. And finish up my gsc essay if not essayS.

Oh ya, tgif supper on fri! Better not dao bi, hopefully.

Till the nxt time, bye~

TGIF!

Had a great friday minus all the pains and torture of having meals. Woke up super early and was late for dental, as usual, but not that late la. It's nice having someone to accompany you there. Even though you'll probably be at ur unglam-est ever, you feel safe and comforted. =) Went chinatown to eat yummy porridge and took a cultural walk around. I think i've never been to chinatown ever. Really, at least for as far as i can rmb. Ha. Went to get a little island getaway after that at Sentosa. The weather was really HOT which is supposed to be good. But well... hahah. Slack by the beach and kind of fell aslp. Really damn shiok. Feel so relaxed..... Fly the lousy kite from daiso and just stroll ard. Had yummy popeyes mashed potatoes for dinner and then went to play kick scooter cos apparently it nv existed in my childhood. haha. Today's a fruitful friday with my boy. =D

my poor boy is posted to ocs which means 9 months of hell for him, and for me too. =( But i know it's a new challenge tat he'll overcome, that we're brave through. =))

But the greatest challenge now is the metal stuff in my mouth. They hurt like MAD. im serious! Kind of dying alr. Cant possible rely on painkillers forever right. And i really want to eat but i cant. SOB SOB. Hope it'll feel better after a few weeks, hopefully one.

Legs and mind's really tired now. Shall slp soon. Till then, tata~

JAILBREAK!

like seriously.

Definitely cant say im gg to ace MYE, probably going flunk every single subject. But still feel like ultra HAPPY today! No more papers. WOHOO! and 4 days of pure happiness without thinking of doing work. that shldnt be the way but who cares, i had enough. =X

Caught esclipse just now. Well, it was okay... Not a must-watch but i guess it's ok to watch. You get it? Haha. Watching world cup now on chn 5. It's few billion times better than watching laggy n lousy quality live streaming online. GO GERMANY! =D Though half time alr still 0-0. Ha!

Poor gek khim still got history paper tmr. Somemore they damn mean, scheduled at afternoon. So evil right. I help you scold them while im out tmr. heehee. =X Anw GO GK! Must ace history man! =DD

where's e light at e end of e tunnel?

I can conclude than gk is an ULTIMATE stalker. haha! This place is dead for billion of years yet she still visits.

Anyway exams SUCKS BIG TIME! and i cant wait for tmr to end. Looking forward to my 4 days' worth of escapade and freedom before the ultimate lows in life which follows thereafter. *pout*

Meanwhile i need to catch up on beauty slp cos i only slpt 2 hrs before heading to sch and my brain cells are degenerating like rapidly. So gd night ppl. Shall wake up later to study chem.

Till then. Bye~

Anyway hope my gf's having fun in poland. =D

what u left unspoken is louder than wat you've said.

I guess there's such a fine line between being understanding and getting urself upset.

You're in the right.

It's just me and my own emotional imbalance and i need to sort them out on my own. Meanwhile, stay away from me.

honeymoon's over. face e real world.