i wonder

e rational me says let go n move on, but the emotional me says have faith n u'll see light at e end of e tunnel.

who shld i listen to?

Been on hiatus for such a long long time, n my life's been quite eventful. Joy n emo-ness all in these few short weeks.

Baby pancake is the apple in everybody's eyes now, so much so that my parents hardly bother abt me. Was telling bf how im becoming a neglected child. Hahaa. But i swear pancake is the cutest thing on earth. I can just stare at her sleeping for hours, n there's just this sense of serenity that surrounds me. She's officially 2 wks' old today, still so vulnerable, so innocent. My life pretty much revolves around her nowadays. I'll come back from work, shower, eat dinner, hug/cuddle/play/disturb her for a couple of hours, den head to bed, and the cycle continues. Even bf has to come over and wait for me to finish cooing her before we head out. She officially took over a part of my heart. =)) (anw pancake is my niece if u still haven figured out. =P)

Went city to get bf's itouch fixed. It's ridiculous how we just cldnt restore it but somehow e guy at e shop managed to, albeit with a tad more time than us. Took 30 min, like @#$%$*. And we had to walk ard aimlessly. Asked the guy what's the root of e prob n i cant believe that he actually said i dunno. -.- Oh well, hope e itouch remains sane. Shopped ard city and we happened to see e balloons exhibition at the centre stage. Super alot of balloons, all so pretty and sophisticated. Met kuanyee, whom im not very shou with, but still, she's very nice to offer to help us snap a pic. Actually wasnt planning to take one, but not very nice to reject her. Haha.

Went camping last wkend with bf n this is his lao po. And the weather wasnt kind to us at all. Started pouring so badly in the wee hour, i was woken out of bed. Bcos of all e hassle, i forgot to take pics. Virgin experience slping in a tent, n i concluded that i love my bed alot.

Anw, it's sunday again. How dreadful. Working isnt exactly fulfilling until u see a 4 figure jump in ur bank account at the end of e month. Oh well, just thankful for all the frens and dramas in life, esp random meetups with ppl i love. Reading's a gd way to get by these days. =)

Anw anw, bf finally graduated on thurs. So happy for him. I could really feel his joy. But gg back to ocs means he'll need to leave earlier on sundays for book-ins. dreads. Bf's commissioning parade in april-quite looking forward to it. But no commissioning ball. =( not fun one. lol. No gd food. =X

Anw anw anw, my sis's trying to figure out the new breast pump she just bought today. N she asked me to try her milk. Like EEEWW... haha

update abt life soon. i figured out tat it's damn hard to come up with a decent post when i feeling emo-ish cos there's a million thghts flashing thrgh my mind but my fingers cant catch up. till then, bye.

@yz. im an OL but im not sexy pls. lol! anw i always see strange ppl when im with you

@everybody else, baby pancake is the cutest thing ever ^ ^



following ur shadow, hoping to catch a glimpse of the u, e part tat i once knew

*pray*

that's a lie.

breathing seems to get harder with each passing second. If i tell you im absolutely calm n nonchalant abt it at this point of time, it's just a facade. It's impossible to not think abt it. Your mind just start wander and cook up screenshots of ur "possible" result slip in ur head. You start realising how heavy all the hopes ppl have on u are. You just kept telling urself, whatever will be will be, if all else fails, well, u can always head private. But sincerely in ur heart, u're just praying so hard that miracles will happen n somehow u'll make it to local ones, whether for urself, or whether it's for the sake of ur parents' pocket.

Life sucks. lol.

Dear friends, pls be nice n not remind me. And those concerned ones, i'll text you. i promise.