every man for themselves

Just a few weeks ago, I was was struggling with an internal turmoil- to sail the sea and be an explorer or to stay grounded but given the learning curve to progress from where I am. Today, I cannot be more certain and affirmed in the choice I've made. Surely, seeing the world would have been something I have very much wanted to do, but situations sometimes leave people steering their wheels in different directions.

I haven talked about work much even though I've been working for almost 2 years. If anyone was to ask me how do I find my job, before July begun, I would readily tell you that I have a nice boss who really didn't bother about punctuality, nice colleagues and the only part I dread about work is waking up. Indeed, my job entails so many varied aspects that no one day is ever the same. Being a marketing coordinator, I could be desk bound replying emails and managing marketing budget, or I could be attending a marketing brief or media session with my colleagues, or I could be at the frontline meeting customers and winners. It was so interesting each day. And I'm ever so thankful that my boss accommodates my timetable each semester. It really tide me through all the financial burden while in university.

But July brought about a new perspective to situations. Things have been pretty rocky at work since the restructuring. And I've been more than overworked, taking on the job scope of 2 others, namely two more portfolios and having to become an on-the-job training PA. Even a pay revision doesn't justify the workload that I'm getting. Still, I didn't mind because I know I will eventually be able to juggle them and there were too many nice people around for me to want to leave.

But I guess one needs to be realistic and grab the good things that come along in life. It's finally time to move on. Especially when people are starting to exploit you, even those you once believe were protecting you. The promise of getting a portfolio that involves more hands-on planning and execution were nothing but empty promises. And when they appear to be supportive of your decisions but got upset with you behind your back because they could never find someone to fill the void you've left. Every man for themselves. That's the last straw.

I'm still grateful for all that happened the past 2 years, but I'm glad I'm moving on to level up somewhere else. There were bad times but surely, there were many many good times. I will probably still well up in tears bidding goodbyes to all the kind angels I've come to know :'(

5 more days.