Woken by the heavy rain n I so wanted to just sleep in. Good thing I didn't on the aircon e night before if not I wld have been froze to death. Took the bus to sch instead. Rain was mad heavy when I left e house. Anw I dunno if I'm lucky or unlucky, I only have one period of lsn at 1210. Which means that I've been rotting in e office since 7am. N I got so bored plus e office was freezing, Im seeking refuge at Mac now. Hee! Free wifi to tap :))

TGIF!

busy tuesday

Super duper busy today n the days to come. =( All thanks to external evaluation from moe. So tchers wld be in n out of class. N i kind of figured out that im the only relief tcher in the sch other than e 3 adjunct tchers that i know of. I had 8 out of 12 periods today. RAHH... But at least upper sec r not that rowdy n wont talk rubbish. Just thinking of my sec 2 class tmr n i feel like strangling them alr. =S

Anw fatty is super adorable n getting fatty-ier. Hee. N she can roll over alr. Cant crawl yet though. =))

blue monday

Supposedly my last wk in esss but oh well. Sch commencement date got postponed. =(( Super sucky. Shall take it as a sign to save more money before sch starts ba. How sad. Im really getting quite sick of the ppl n students there alr. RAH! But u wldnt want to find other jobs after working at one which allows u to get home latest by 230pm, not much transportation costs and allows u to read/do leisure stuff half the time u're working?

See. Shall just hang on ba. Anw next mon n tues is holiday! =))

Anw, assembly got cancelled today idk y, but it means that i only had 2 periods today. Shiok or wat. N i finished my book alr. 6th book ever since i started working i think, which means in a span of say slightly less than 2 months? Bookworm or wat. If only i was this hardworking when im studying. Lol.

fatty n her chewable sophie e giraffe teether.

she's eating giraffe meat! =O

after all e drilling they r finally putting cement. gosh. just hurry up n get things done! rahh

sunny sunday

Love sunday cos it's a wkend, but hates it bcos there's work/sch e nxt day.

Spent e day lazing at mcafe, just reading a book, leting time slip away, having each others' companion. I love to drink coffee! but been trying to abstain from it cos it'll stain my teeth n it's so hard to clean when u have braces. =( But decided to let loose on a sunday. Hee. Always share cake with somebody, dun be greedy, cos u'll feel sick after a while. Haha. Too cheezzy n not nutty enough. But still quite delectable la.

Anybody watches 9pm show on chn 8. Saw the kimberly gal tat acts as ah ya in the show, studying at mac. She's much skinner n more bimbotic in person. =x Thght she was my age, but she's only in sec 4. =o Feel so old... But i look young! =D

see my mochacinno so pretty, cldnt bear to stir it. =p

my hair so long right. hehehe

Went home to catch a ride to my grandma's places cos we're celebrating her bday. Celebrated earlier cos my 2 cousins were supposedly gg back to china soon as their vacation's ending. N bcos my dad's car cldnt fit all of us, he drove his bike den my sis's bf took my dad's car n drove us there. His driving sucks, n he stalled twice. lol! Makes me miss driving so much. =(( Miss being on the road, miss the speed, miss being in control. *pout* can money pls drop from e sky...

Anw went to have this at this restaurant near my ah ma's place. N e food sucks. N e thing is we ate at e same place last yr, it sucks, n then they booked e same place this yr. -.- Waste of money. N everyone was using iphone while waiting for food to come. oh man. All IT slaves. I think im one too. =x

There was this waiter n his name was luo zhi xiang. like exactly. lol! I heard my uncle calling him n i thght he was making fun of him cos he really look as though he's trying to imitate show's style. But after that i saw e name tag n it's really tat! But shall just take it with a pinch of salt. Those ppl in service sector can put any name they want on e name tag anw. lol.

sat

Super random but ended up spending at wildwildwet. Surprisingly, it's much more crowded than i thght. If not for my bf, i'll prolly nv step into that place. =X Feel like lazing ard so started the day with countless rounds in the lazy pool sitting on the huge float. Love the luxury of time. Then, bf got bored n insisted that we do some exciting rides. =S But i was really in a laid back mood n so he let me off n we didnt have to take e slide up. =X Ended the day having learnt how to do a breast stroke n freestyle with the help of a float. lol. That's wat u get for having a lifeguard bf- getting forced to try n get comfort in e water when u're hydrophobic. Haha.

Anw we went to buddy hoagies for dinner n im so gonna BOYCOTT that place. Food sucks! Service shitty! They r fastest when u nid to get ur bills. Waited super long for the food and when e food came, it wasnt hot at all. Super wth. Shld have just sticked to all time fave-pastamania. =S

Im like 2 shades darker now. oh man!

sandwich is damn hard, not hot n fries disgustingly cold. yucks! but bf always have this e-food-damn-nice xpression cos he eats so fast

boycott pls!

TGIFFF!

TGIF!!!
Been out after sch almost everyday this week in a bid to avoid all the drilling downstairs. The noise just just deafening! N poor fatty can hardly slp at home.

On an airport expedition today n fatty got a new throne- e airport's baby sitter. Super useful and fatty loves it! Think she's super overwhelmed by the swirls of colours. Sitting at e viewing mall now while fatty catches some sleep. But I have no idea why thus group of other nationality ppl wants to come n sit beside us, breaking the serenity. RAH!

I'm really really Slpy now. Yawn

handy pram

fatty looks so adorable

huge washroom @t3

so exhausted idk why. lol! knocked out from 6 till 9pm.

eating dinner now =X

exhausted

Had a duper long day. 10 out of 12 periods today. RAH! At least i was taking the sec 3 classes tat i've been seeing the past few days cos the same tcher was sick. Hope she's better alr. Sick for 3 days seems quite serious. =/

Anw damn pissed at this stupid woman. Had to invigilate this sec3 class for geo test n den after that submit to this hod. So i passed to her n den she asked me if i realised e mistake in e paper. N den i was thinking like. hmm. izite tat the table heading got mistake cos e food consumption in LDCs is higher than developing cty. But i didnt say anything just asked wat e mistake was. N i was right. Den she was like "didnt u realise the mistake?" in the very demanding voice n i was so tempted to slap her, like seriously. I thght the figures cld be like that on purpose like an exception or something. Didnt want to be a smart alec plus i had nobody to check with. But didnt know e setter would make such a mistake. N the worst thing is when one tcher found out e mistake, nobody went ard the classroom to inform anybody. wtf. This is CA eh n all e tchers just ma hou pao after e paper den come point fingers. Full of shit. I cant be bothered. RAH!

tuesday with my 2 boys =)

Busy day today. Had 2 tchers on mc and 1 tcher on course, which amts to like 8 periods today? Cld have zao-ed home at 2pm like usual but i just had to have a single period at 2pm. Emo. So had duper long lunch break from like 1145am till 2pm. So fatty came to find me n we had lunch @mac together. N i think bcos e malay r fasting so e place is quite quiet. =)

Anw quite like to take 3E classes cos they r much more controllable. =X Took a non 3E class @2pm n i jus feel like strangling them. Izite so hard to stfu n do ur work? All the nonsense qns, try to bargain, stone, refuse to do, bad attitude, n e list goes on...

Fatty waited for me to end work n den we went to my aunt's place just across e road from my hse. Just so to avoid all the drilling at e void deck. It's SO LOUD i haf a splitting headache ytd. No idea y they had to redo e cement downstairs when it's all fine. Waste of money n LOTS of inconvenience. Tsk.

My 2 nephews finished sch alr so talked to them a little n stuff, n taught e p4 one chinese. It's really quite bad. I dunno wat's my cousin doing, sending him to eng tuition when it's his chinese tat nids help. lol. Anw im glad im didnt end up a pri sch tcher. Bcos i really doubt i can handle that. *faint* kids these days r SO DIFF from our time. Ha! Generation gap. =X

wkends

Had a homely dinner after watching cowboys n aliens. Anw the movie is as the title stated, cowboys n aliens. lol.

not gonna take any individual shots till i lose some wt. getting rounder. =/

SUNDAY

u wldnt believe that we spent both wkends @dtown. oh man. watched rise of the watever ape. It's not too bad really. N though it's an older movie compared to the cowboy n alien, there's ALOT more ppl watching ape. Ha!

N since we had time before e movie, we went to e arcade. unbelievable.

n changed all these tickets for 2 tiny packets of chips n A sweet, just right for us to eat in the theatre after tat. =X

went to collect this free pokemon trading card using the voucher we got for renewing our nebo card. Super LOL!

thosai n prata for dinner before bf books in. Personally dun like thosai cos damn nua n e colour's not very appetitising. Hee!

empty

That's okay," he says.

"No. I want to," i tell him.

"Really. It's okay."

I remove my hand from my husband's neck and place it on my lap. I look out of the window. I'm afraid i might cry. He puts his hand on mine. This time, i pull away.

"I'm sorry," he says softly.

"It's not my fault," i tell him without looking at him. But i don't believe it. I think everything is my fault. i am the woman in the family; I'm supposed to make everything work. What i can't seem to say aloud is that i'm failing.



What does it all seem so familiar?

Bottleneck

Chilling at coffeebean @ehub with smelly felly now. :)) but poor her is busy burrowing her head in chem while I enjoy my hot tea. =x n I seriously cant rmb nuts abt organic chem. Oops. So much for all the hard work last year. Lol

Anw finished 2 sessions of tuition today. So accomplished! Can enjoy my thurs n fri afternoons with no more commitments already. Though it's kind of weird seeing my Sunday tutee on a wed morning. Totally made today feels like another Sunday. Hee! I kind of forget how to spell pyjamas today. Ha! Anw my second tutee however, woke me up from this illusion. Like seriously, it took him 5 min to figure out what's the ans of 10x + 4x + 4x. I think he got a shock when I increased my volume as the lsn went by. =/

Oh man sch/work Tmr again...

so close to losing it

been finding excuses for all the things u chose not to do.

frankly,

i dunno how to do this anymore.

when u've lost the reason to hold on

tgif tgif tgif

TGIF! It's friday, once again! Love it when i got no relief to do, which means i only had 2 periods today. =D

anw the parade squ is covered with this really HUGE tentage with this makeshift tiny stage for the upcoming national day dinner for the public i think this coming mon. Hence morning assembly was held in e classrooms for ytd n today, which is GREAT! Cos i can stay in the staffroom and enjoy my breakfast. =p N i realise tchers in the staffroom dun bother to stand for flag raising. =X

Got an unexpected call today from moe, offering me a vacancy in nie. Which after some thoughts, decided against it. Dun think i wanna be stuck teaching or am ready for teaching yet, esp after the relief tching stint. =x

Hmm... i wonder if i nid to report to sch on mon... Shall ask my boss tmr. Too lazy to think abt sch now. =)

it's amazing how i took a nap just now from 4pm till 7.30pm, yet i still feel so tired now n have no qualms abt getting to bed.

Oh gosh. Am i gettin old?!

Nights ppl! =p

i think im probably the most tactless person in the world. shoot me! lol.

went for tuition today n i very naively asked my student if he wanted to go get a drink since his mum only got me a drink. N then he replied "im fasting", with a smile.

i was SO apologetic, esp since i ate sweet to keep myself awake. =X

tuesday with bf

Bf took leave today as he had been really busy with family matters for the past wkend. Hence we decided to meet up n shun bian cut hair together after i knocked off. Apparently the hairdresser that cut my hair had a much easier time since i only snipped off 1 inch from the back n trimmed my fringe, which all took less than 10 min im sure. But i reckon it's better to look like u haven cut ur hair at all than having ur fringe or hair looking too short for ur own gd aka kuku looking right. =p

Went to tamp to catch bridesmaids after that. Now i know y it's rated m18. Hmp... But apart from that, it's kind of funny. N e film is bout 2.5h long! No wonder i feel my back aching cos gv's seats isnt exactly very comfy. =X

Bf's on his way to book-in alr n im so gonna slp early tonight. So TIRED! *yawn*

sat dayout

Chilled out with sec sch frens today. Totally no plans for the day but nvtheless fun. Somehow we always work better without plans. Haha.

had lunch. cupwalker-ed. saboteur-ed. mj-ed. cluedo-ed.

n we had zichar for dinner together. Feels kind of homely, the way u order different dishes and share together. Though ced was damn disgusting, the way he demonstrates how he licks his spoon clean. =S

Next month's gonna be a busy month for everybody alr. wen n deb's gonna start sch, joel gg enlist... Cant wait for my sch to start too. Miss being a student... Bet i wld take back my wrds when term really starts. But it's for real, at least for now. =X

n thanks gf! for mini magnums to satisfy our cravings at such late hours. hee

Ytd was a damn draining day. Today too actually.

Anw one student jus had to spoil my mood first thing in the morning ytd n i had to send him down to the office cos he was simply beyond my control. N mind u it's a sec 4 kid, supposedly in the best class. Delegated work to the kids to do n he just have to conveniently forgot that it's a ss lsn n started doing chem work. Asked him to put it away, refused. Gave last warning, AP-ed. Ask him to stand outside the class, refused, n said that he wont listen to me. So i decided to treat him like transparent, facilitate other kids in answering qns, turned to look at him n he was busy talking. Hence, BAO! N sent him down to discipline mistress.

N guess what happened today. Apparently, the student told a diff version to the dm. Good job, u're in the wrong n u push the blame to the tcher. Checked with other tchers n wasnt surprised to know that other tchers had problems with him too. I wldnt have minded him not doing his work but it's his attitude that really got me. Even if he doesnt respect me as a tcher, im still many yrs his senior pls. What happened to moral values

Of cos, was damn apologetic for sending my boss's kids out of the class cos it's not very nice right... So explained to her what happened today when i finally see her. N she told me it's gd to be stern to control the class, but be careful not to provoke students, obviously in a really TACTFUL way. But still, i really minded actually. Im not the kind that puts ppl down when im mad nor will i sprout offensive words to agitate others, n i always make sure that i dun over-flare up n always choose to talk sense into them someway somehow. N then somebody comes along n say u shldnt provoke students. Like wthell! If contradicting/correcting students means provoking them den im probably doing that everyday. If that student uses tat kind of attitude to a tcher n i dun have e right to correct him or simply choose to ignore him, i dunno what's e pt of being a tcher anymore.

Anyway, the incident does indeed sets me thinking. If e sch doesnt trust e way i handle students/situations, den wat's the point of hiring me. It really does gets to me when ppl ask for ur help n afterwards question ur ability.

It also makes me wonder if a relief tcher shld just be somehow who's there to merely give out instructions and work to do, n not be bothered if they are actually doing their work or not, or be concerned with discipline issues. Maybe i shld just take a backseat in class from now on, not be bothered if they're really doing their work at all, n just chit chat n let time slip away with e students.

ya rite. Just whining. I dun think i can ever let that happen. Cant get over my own conscience. Anw went out to have big breakfast with my pe fren. Blissful max. Love big breakfast! =D N then it started pouring madly while we were eating. Good thing we had time to spare n wait out a little n e rain got smaller just before our lsns starts.

Had my first mini lsns with my 6 china kids today. Abit tiring but quite fun. Think my chinese getting sucky, abit stuck when im trying to translate eng geo content into chinese. Hahaha. I think lsns will be more fun when we get our own classroom. Heehee...

Anw i've survived the 3 lousy days of the week. Horray to thurs n fri!! im super slpy now alr. Shall have an early nite! =))